All of me!

Today I made a decision - I've had two blogs, not writing much in either of them. Now I've decided to join both of them together here.  Since I don't have many readers anyway, it doesn't really matter what I do :). But for some reason I've hidden away a bit the part of me which is very interested in spiritual matters, even if most of the books I read are about personal growth, angels, etc. The funny thing is also that at the same time when I wrote in the other blog that I won't write there anymore, I listened to

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=148bT3uOFHc&context=C4c64d78ADvjVQa1PpcFPnypCshOj87QLaqrrfZDnp4vZQNT_jk98= 

(thank you to "My Green blog" for posting such interesting links always - and having a beautiful blog!) and the spriritual card she picked for this week was about "revealing yourself, show the world your inner truth", etc (in the middle of the video) - and this is what I'm doing right now!!

Every week I read channelled messages about the changes going on in the world etc. So it is a big part of me. And it shouldn't be tucked away. So I'll try to bring all aspects of me into this blog - the mundane and the other dimension. I want to symbolize that by posting two things now, first of all a picture, which has been following me for the past eleven years, I think. It's a picture that is hanging in my bedroom, painted by Sarita Vahtera. I think I was freshly separated when I attended a new age event in Helsinki (probably late Fall 2001). I was just leaving when Sarita's paintings caught my eye and I bought this one. She was really nice to talk to and blessed the picture, and it has reminded me of who I can be during the years when I've been feeling low. 

The second link is to another important side of me - connected to the picture :). The love of salsa and dancing. This is one of the bands that was playing on the cruise I went on two weeks ago (more about that two posts below). I talked and danced with the guy playing the trumpet :) (which I've, by the way, played myself for a few years as a teenager!)

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sPLKEVppgms

Whew, now I've spent hours writing here - the rest of the day, until D gets back tonight at 7 pm I'm going read, right now I'm reading Vladimir Megrés books. I'm not sure if I "believe" in them  or not, but the message, basically "we have to take better care of nature" etc, is one I totally agree with and the books are interesting. 

Last night I went out to a restaurant for a 7 course dinner (small courses :). mobilephoto f one of them :D) with  11 other members of "fotoklickarna", the photoclub I belong to. We celebrated the sales of our book "Nykarleby 365",  which has gone really well. I stated looking for a link to the book, but can't find it, so maybe I haven't even written about it here?! Anyway, it was a project that took a year, every photographer was in charge of about two days per month .  

Outside it's gray/rainy, so I'm just going to relax for the rest of the day, since I got home rather late....

(ps. kan någon berätta hur jag får videona att synas på bloggen och inte bara länkadressen :(?)

Easter traditions

D wanted to be an Easter rabbit again this year. I tried to  convince him a witch would be nice (=easier) but he said: " I feel in my heart I don't want to be a witch", so rabbit it was!). On Easter Saturday children here go from house to house and get candy. I still take him and we visit neighbors and godparents and my mother's friends. Unfortunately I had a slight temperature, so we just sent a photo to a few once, but managed to visit five families :). 

We first went to the shop to get some chokolate eggs (that is what the bunny brings, isn't it :)?), there we met a small witch :). I was a big witch (even if I've gained weight again, I don't weigh 100 kilos yet...which I look like in the photo in the middle :). 

In the evening we had our traditional Easter bonfire with  our neighbours and friends. Normally at this time of year, I've cleared the garden of dry grass, branches etc, but this year there was still too much snow. But the neighbour's boys had branches to burn, so we had a nice one anyway. 

Usually I try to visualize burning up all sorrows from the past years in the flames reaching up to the spring sky.  

D was happy with people around (unfortunately no other kids...well, 12-year old, but  that's now quite the same....) . Still ,we had a really, really nice Saturday - then I was knocked out for two days after (same energy low/temperature), but on Tuesday I was fit for work again. Hooray!

Past month and so....

Hi there! I'm sorry I haven't written for some time. I can't decide if I should stop blogging entirely or continue like this - write occasionally when I feel I have the time. The blog is good to have as documentation, but to be honest, I don't really feel it's adding much to my life. In order for a blog to work, I now understand you have to regularly post and also read other blogs, but I don't have time to read other blogs anymore and writing here also takes time. I prefer fb, where I can quickly see what goes on with other people and there is a lot of communication going on, which of course is vital for me. But since I don't really feel like quitting completely, I'll continue like this...I'll write occasionally, when I feel like it! 

At the beginning of the year I was prepared to turn a page, begin anew, start with a year I could look back on as a "good" one. But, unfortunately, you can't always decide what happens and the past months have been about bad health. If it hasn't been my son, it's been myself or then both together. The result has been the same - I've had to stay home a lot and have not been able to work much, which of course has added to a feeling of slight desperation about finances and frustration about just being at home, not seeing people and feeling tired and without energy. There has been a some time periods (days..) in between when we've been ok and I've though we can move on, but then again son has started coughing, for instance, or I've felt a slight temperature...But now - knock on wood - I've been able to work full time after Easter and I really, really hope we'll stay well now. April is usually the busiest month for me work wise, so the timing of the flues has been bad...I've been working for two weeks in daycare, with a few weeks in between. There was supposed to be a week more, but that was when D had his stomach problems. what else have I done...haven't written hardly at all, but right now I'm in a project to write six articles for a personnel magazine, which I always do spring and fall. I've also become guardian for a new Afghani boy (14) and local tv is "on", few interviews now and then and news presenter once a month. After a few weeks I hope to be able to concentrate on my own writing again.

When I look at these photos I've uploaded from March and beginning of April, everything of course looks fine - I haven't taken pictures of us spread out on the sofa looking miserable :). And, as we talked with a friend of mine, this is still minor, basically I'm a fairly strong and healthy person, no illnesses, except for these occasional flues...so I should be grateful!

Here are some pictures of the good moments from the last month or so...:

In between we had a picnic in the garden - a bit of a change to just sitting inside....

We still have Elmer (yellow) and Maya. I'm very fond of them now, love having them hop around the garden. It's a bit critical though, I'm so hoping there'll stay on our premises and not visit our neighbour's, which are right next to us, and unfortunately, with nicer lawns....

Spring was well under way and then we suddenly got a lot of snow again :(. This is the  view from my  desk, we're next to the road.

Pekka has spring feelings, Fia is not very interested. They still don't get along...after more than 1,5 years, sigh. But at least they can be in the same room together, if there is enough space in between them...

I love it when the birds are returning. Swans and cranes. The other day I saw a redhawk (I think in English....) in a field  - my cousin knows a lot about birds and I always consult him when I see something interesting and new to me.

Two weeks ago me and my friend B went on a cruise to Sweden (Helsinki - Stockholm) - didn't bring my camera and the camera in the phone is fairly useless.... They had "Cuba"-weeks on the  ferry and it also happened to be "den stora finlandssvenska kryssningen "("the big cruise for Swedish-speaking Finns :) , which we didn't know beforehand. It was the best cruise I've ever been on - even the train ride down to Helsinki went fast - we sat in the restaurant car and talked to a lot of nice people! On the boat I finally got to dance salsa!! There were two Cuban bands on the boat and one of the members danced with me - he suggested  a bit more as well, but I said it was enough with one Cuban husband :). But it was so nice to dance and also have someone show interest (I was actually quite attracted at first, but then was put off by his obvious interest in me below the neck, not above) :). 

One of my best friends work on the ferry, and she had collected a welcome-"buffet" for us in the cabin with things she knows I like :). She is a wonderful friend and even if she was working, we managed to talk a bit in between.

D is growing, he has his first loose tooth :). Right now he is at his dad's, so I have the weekend to myself. Needed that after the intense past week (6 hours/day at daycare + trying to catch up with a lot of other jobs as well...).