R.I.P. Lilla My?

Right now I'm sad and tired - despite my efforts to create a life filled with life, death visits us far too often. For the third summer in a row, an animal dear to me dies. This time it was my fault - I should've made the rabbits' exercise-pen more "escape-secure", and I shouldn't have forgotten to lock them into their cage in the evening. But I did, already in bed I remembered, and then it was too late, the rabbits had disappeared (probably jumped over the fence, where it was a bit lower). They were on the run for two nights. I saw Lilla My during the first day - in the morning I was five centimeters from catching her. In the late afternoon I didn't have time to start chasing her - and that was the last I saw of her. The next morning our neighbors had caught Doris, but Lilla My hasn't been seen since. Doris was in bad shape - all swollen up around her neck. I suspect wasps, since it went down after a day. I did call the vet, but it was late in the day, and I had just gotten a visit from a dear friend who lives in Denmark - I didn't want to start taking her to a vet far away. But the one I talked to recommended pineappple juice, when I asked if there wasn't any herb or thing I could give her. I don't know if it was the pineapple or what, but now the swelling is almost gone - one of her eyes looks a bit strange, though. Like she has developed a cataract (? starr?) over night.

It's been three days now since I say My, two days ago I saw the black Tomcat, which seems to live in our barn, in our yard. I'm sure he's killed her, otherwise she would've come to see her sister. I don't think Fia has touched her - she has had the opportunity before, and not taken it. Once she jumped into their pen and they sniffed each other and were all calm and friendly. Fia really looked like she understood they were family. The worst part is that I don't know for sure what happened to her.

I lay awake last night thinking about what to do. I had read on the internet that a rabbit really needs a companion and my aim has been to have happy rabbits....who get exercise and have space and possibility to do "rabbit-things", like dig in the dirt. Seems to have been very naive, since they probably would've started digging themselves out next. But I can't stand seeing a sad and depressed little creature locked into a small cage - not when the animal is in my care . But right now I'm not sure I have the energy to find a new one, and then "train" them to get along.Doris' other sisters have already been sold, it won't be so easy to put two strangers together. On the other hand, there is not much choice. I was thinking about giving her away, but on the other hand I've enjoyed having more animals at home, even if I'm fed up with them taking advantage of my efforts to give them freedom... And even if D didn't spend much time with them, he doesn't want me to give Doris away.

So (sigh) - does anyone have a friendly female rabbit to give away (have already spent a fair bit of money on them, wouldn't like to pay much anymore....)? Or know of anyone who has? Pls get in touch in that case!